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The Day my Life Began

       As a little girl, you hear fairy tales about love and prince charming. Your parents or loved ones read your books of prince charming saving the princess, and how despite life's trials, love will always conquer all. One day you turn around and you're an adult. If you're anything like me you're a person who has been beaten down and tortured by love. People coming in and out of your life stomping on your heart on the way out the door. Leaving your childhood fantasy of love diminished, something you can see, but wonder if it's truly real or if it will ever touch you. Once upon a Time, that was me, a woman who had given up on love, I believed I was unworthy. Living 25 years feeling as if love, by any means, was just a fun Idea parents and society implant into young gullible minds. Just when I'd given up, decided to settle on a less than desirable relationship with a monster, I was caught in a whirlwind with my soul mate.     At the risk of sounding cliche, we&

How reading helps my Depression

Anyone who knows me knows I have a deep affection for books and writing. I am planning on writing not just a novel but a series. My passion is psychology, forensics, PI and  detective based novels I am a thriller girl all the way, with a passion for mythology as well I highly recommend the Tracy Crosswhite series By Robert Dugoni  Its about a Young woman who becomes a Homicide detective in search for her sister who disappeared years before in their home town in cedar grove. It is a series I couldn't put down, filled full of love, loss, suspense and mystery.     ` As a woman who battles depression I, like many others find reading as an escape from reality.     To get lost on a adventure with characters you fall in love with, is just the greatest escape. Its almost like being a child again and being taken off to neverland. I believe reading also helps give perspective with other peoples situations which can help you empathize with them. Maybe even give us understanding in our own sit

My Addction

A little about me My name is Heather Eaglen, I am 32 years old and I aspire to be a novelist, which is a issue because at the moment I don't even know what to write for this blog. lol  I struggle with addiction and I am currently clean, I have been for over a year now. Sometimes I worry that staying sober is an impossible task. Sometimes I feel weak and unworthy of a good life, a clean sober life. At times I wonder if I am the type of person who Can be successful at anything or if I will always fail. I've realized most of my failures have not been because I was incapable of success but because I am always so terrified of failing that I never try. I talk about all these things that I want to do, but I never actually do them an all the while days are just passing me by.  How do I learn to let go of my mistakes, my mistakes as an addict, my mistakes as a woman, my mistakes as a child. How do I live A life and not let these things define the woman I truly want to be. How do you fix